This song is a journey into my first experiences in college. It's meant to be fun but also incredibly afflictive. I always like to take normal concepts, and really deliberate how I feel about whatever it may be. Either that, or I suck at parties.
When I am at the glass with poison in my reach, I never think about the way I feel internally.
With the things that I keep deep down inside, I consume enough to throw it up dead or alive.
I'll have another sip, and see a friend I miss, And I feel like I am the one who ends relationships.
I know I've had enough, and into bed I climb. I've learned my lesson once again, the same as last time.
Bitter bites and party lights.
Things get dark when we're at night.
I can't seem to hold my outbursts,
So hear my thoughts. They're all unrehearsed.
I always think I've found a cure for being shy, and it works but I've got faces like a Gemini.
And it's all good fun, and everything is fine, but it all just goes away when I am clear of mind.
I don't think I can hold out like this, when all my pleasure is a wisp.
Overtime that I close my eyes, I wish I could go back in time.
Lay on the floor with enough regret, so maybe when I wake up I will not forget, about the time when I raised my glass to a never ending party where I'd never last.
released July 21, 2017
James Owens: Mastering
Dusty Williams: Back Up Vocals, Mixing
Micalyn Rowe: Mixing Assistant
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